I’ve been feeling confused again as to what it is I want to do with my life. I feel like I started this passion pursuit on a mission and it was going great, and then, as I got happier, as I started to find more joy in my blog and daily life and filling my life with other things, I started to get complacent, and now I’m feeling that anxiety and panic slowly start to creep back in and freak me out. That “OH MY GOD I AM ALMOST 30 WHAT IN THE HELL AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE” feeling that sends me into a spiral of panic and negativity, and suddenly I’ve wasted hours focusing on all sorts of completely unrealistic and unnecessary and unproductive thoughts. A whole lot of UN.
I need less Un.
So what to do? I’m not so sure. I feel like I’ve been looking so hard for inspiration that I’m trying too hard. Interesting articles and artwork used to just jump out at me, but lately I feel like I spend hours scouring the internet and still can’t find anything to get excited enough to write about. It doesn’t feel as organic as it did a few months ago. I need a project or something.
I’m trying to learn illustrator which is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I had falsely assumed that because I am fairly computer savvy, I would pick it up easily, and within a couple days I would be creating the most amazing prints and invitations and cool graphics. I envisioned my friends asking me to help make their wedding invitations because I was just that good.
HAHAHAHA. If only. In my most recent attempt I tried to make my text more scripty and curly and instead it looked like a 1 year old scribble. I’ve got a long way to go.
I started reading Martha Becks’ Finding Your Own North Star and there are all sorts of exercises to help you come closer to your “essential self,” what Martha likes to refer to as “your north star.” And so far the book and exercises are great! But reading it has also made me realize just how far I have fallen from my north star. Outside of spending time with the people I love, eating good food, reading (be it books. blogs, etc), and, well, watching TV… I’m not sure what else I really enjoy doing. And that makes me feel more than a little bit pathetic. I have to have more interests than eating and drinking and reading, right?
Clearly I’m in a creative rut, and I need to break out of it.
So that’s where I am right now. Lacking creativity and not sure how to find it.
And with that, I will leave you with the following infographic “How to Break Out of a Creative Rut.” I hope it’s helpful!
Do you have tips when you are lacking creativity?
Infographic from: http://visual.ly/how-break-out-creative-rut